That Seven Days..

For our special semester programme we are having seven working days of SOP(School Orientation Programme). It was a new experience for us future teacher cohortV IPIK. Lots of things have happened but first sorry for not updating my blog for a longggGGggggg time. To be frank, none of us were expecting what for the sop, especially since it include the preschooler. How the hell we are to do things with the preschool?? We haven't even been taught the methodology of teaching. Nak ngajar? Bahasa pon x btol? after dozens of explanation. La.. it was just observing.. Lega.. btw, the experience was one of the kind. sk bndar bru sri petaling 1 was just simply stunning. they are of course a great school. (Bangga le tu.. (",) kishishishi) people said that pic was enough to tell everything. so here are some of them.

the one in the middle with yellow shirt mama Siti (kitorg kak siti je)

Yg ni.. aKsi memberus gigi.. Dari hujung.. Haiqal, Kar-Q, Raj, N Atikah Balqis. brus smpai putih..

The Quietest of them all.. choong soon you.. Snyum pon nak kna pksa ckgu gak.

Ni nma dia Sabrina.. Sori ye kat sebelah bkan adhwa.. hehhehe Yg sblah alif... playboy kelas..

Wahyi Hidayat.. Suka bwat muka.. Nakal.. Kaya tu.. hobi dia main golf..


Future teachers.

ni yg dtg time tu.. kalu ikutkan kar-q, soon you, n aisyah x dtg..


sekian. Pas ni mesti dorg cari cikgu.. hahahhahahh.. conclusion? Sop open up eyes.. mula mmg xnak.. da cuti pastu mcm xnak habih plak.. kishishishis.. will miss all o' 'em..

Chasing Pavement - Adele

I've made up my mind,
Don't need to think it over

If I'm wrong, I am right

Don't need to look no further,

This ain't lust

I know this is love

But, if I tell the world

I'll never say enough

Cos it was not said to you

And that's exactly what I need to do

If I end up with you

Should I give up,

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements?

Even if it leads nowhere

Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place

Should I leave it there

Should I give up,

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements

Even if it leads nowhere

I build myself up

And fly around in circles
Watin' as my heart drops

And my back begins to tingle

Finally, could this be it

Or should I give up

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements

Even if it leads nowhere

Or would it be a waste

Even if I knew my place

Should I leave it there

Should I give up

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements

Even if it leads nowhere

Or would it be a waste

Even if I knew my place should I leave it there

Should I give up

Or should I just keep on chasin' pavements

Should I just keep on chasin' pavements

Came across this song. sad song. wondering should she just chase pavement knowing it won't leave her anywhere she wanted to. it's a choice actually. to pursue the guy or just let it be.

came across this cover though. want a real singer go download yourself. Or Tell me. i'll try to give it through any mean as soon as i can.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1RhYdQnZ_hw&feature=channel_page

p.s - muka die ad iras vanessa hudgens kan? tap sore die lag sdap.. hahaha.. ak anti high skul musical.. errrrr.... lalalalalalalalalalal..

Toiling The Toll Out Of Exam Which Is Just Around The Corner

Long title post huh? but it's the fact.Tomorrow is our final. WOOT! To recap, lots of things have happened. i don't even know where to start. From the recent scold for not following protocol enough, to the time for going through major hellish weeks for 2 workshops and one important assignment to finish AND not having enough time to take cats nap. one thing i say that everyone should agree on. We have gone through hell and back. HELL YEAH!!(wink*wink hai kyoX) sound repetitive but still i'm loving my "spears" semester. stop dom. no need to go further. ok. actually i just wasted ur time reading. kishishishi. Just want to wish everyone who came across this blog and incidentally having final exam for the semester well goodluck. cohort V after this hell relax. Cos we still have one last level of hell. Then it is seventh heaven. in the mean time have fun studying. ??? fun= study? the hell!!

Being Happy is Just Being Happy.

Sometimes, I wonder. Wait. i amazed myself. How could i look rather happy. I don't know. Maybe i never take things seriously. People could go and say u are this that and i would just smile and laugh with the matter. A LOT OF studies and researches have been done on this state of being happy. And they say that happy could make you younger, happy can make you thinner, happy can help other people. IDK but IMO i can help some of you guys live a large lifelessly life happily with that endorphine induced tranced whatchamacallit state.
1. To be happy you must throw away ur worries for a while. Go and do things that you would never thought of doing. me? I love all sorts of things. Now among my favourite things to do is catching up with whatever sorts of anime in the anime world. To do that you must have time on your own. If you like, what? i don't have time for what i want. I am buried under this assignments/works/books/paper or etc. How dare you asks me to set aside this things. Well get yourself an hour or two to pamper yourself. you'll be amazed.
2. To be happy you must have nescafe. ak jadi promoter nescafe plak... IDK try having somthing you long to indulge at. ice cream/spa/holidays/ anything that requires you to spend money. hehehehe. But to do this you must have company. Yes, company. Company is a must. no ambiguity here ok. Company as in friend. bring your bestfriend/s out and agree on one thing and go spend your money on it. I admit i have done this. Cough cough cosmo cough cough. I admit at first i was a little hesitant. To throw away money is not my strong suit. But i spend money on it. and guess what. It was a worth it experience.
3. To be happy is a state of mind. to achieve it you must forgive. Forgive every wrong your friends have done to you and you feel happier. really? well if you still dwell in that sin that friend of yours have done towards you, you will inevitable feel guilty about it. and guilty is one of the roadblock towards happiness. Hey not just your friends you yourself must ask for someone's mercy if you done anything bad and all. don't say that i preach but never do anything bout it. i have forgiven my friends. thousands of times already. till they get to an annoying point where i think that i could not forgive them, but i manage to pull in deep breath and exhale away the feeling. Best. try it sometimes.
4.To be happy is to be with someone you love. Try calling or sms-ing you loved one. call and say you just call to know whether they fine or not, how life and all. it is better after a few call.

I'm not sure whether this writing has values or not. but to be happy is subjective. you can be happy with the thing but not ither person. another man's junk is another man's treasure. or something similar to that. so if reader want to try my way of being happy go ahead. you might give yourself a suprise.

Cheers

stretch.. yargh!!! look at watch.. Damn! it's 4:50 in the morning. Damn. just finished my part of assignment. waiting for my partner to finish his. Earphone in the ear sings to me John Denver's Take me home country road. country road take me home. to a place where i belong. sings to it slowly not to disturb other people. some are asleep some are with their assignment. open my hood someone besides me. anuar. ok. i'm done. take the soft copy and merge everything. the fan slashed the air making sound. breezy and cold. typed everything out already. done. sigh. cold. can't sleep or else won't awake. late already. way past bedtime. way way past bedtime. one big burden shaken off the shoulder. i survived. first thought. i survived through hell. it was wonderful. tiring yet there's a satisfaction on it. moment seized moment stopped moment carved forever. how beautiful can words be to describe that joyous moment. angel's choir faintly appear. and dissappear. i run mentally and physically. i was exhausted yet i pushed. limit is there. the deep dark hole waits to swallow me hole. yet as i push towards the edge there is still ground. i stared. into the wall. hoping it would congratulate me. yet they stared back like i was a fool. the screen laughed at me. laughed at what i'm going through. they tell me if you had done it earlier. i answered back then it is not a challenge. going through hell and lived to tell the tale. i smile. then it fade. remorse fills my veins. wish i had done it sooner. confused. where is my stand right now. i don't want to sit on the fence. someone can push me down. i might fall and bruised myself. amazing. i can still type. type my feeling into words. limited vocabulary yet they can sketch my feeling. i have done it. worry not. you have done it. you've made it through. i am proud of you. but don't do it again. the same stunt won't be entertaining and they won't entertained you. you have pressed that button you have made that choice. it has been written on the stone. i lay back. the chair comforts me in it arm. 4 hours before the deadline. spend my 2 hour writing my 2 cents. i'm a nuisance. don't read this. i'm being impulsive. that tired unconscious mind have been taken over by the half awake side of brain. waiting like a lion. wait. to pounce on it's victim. it jumped and catched the prize of the day. in tranced. feels like flying. yet gravity holds down. like a bird caged. singing it life away. let it go. past is past. you are done. so are you. we both made it. that freezing hell can't stop us. we held hands together and not letting each other go. i'm proud of us. stop. stop. stop rambling about. it's pure nonsense yet it motivating. my hand won't stop typing. i do not think. i just type. the neuron just do their work. pity them. have to overwork. they are a good sport. want to pamper myself. sleep the whole day. sleep until i bleed through my eyes. sleep till my body fully recharged. they deserved a good rest. heart still pounding. pity him. can't rest. slowly work itself in sleep. good morning. good day.

Ish... Why me?

-If someone says "are you okay" you say?
do i look ok? kishishishi.. yes is the answer.
-What do you like in a guy/girl?
No matter which apple i picked right now all of them have seeds. lalalalala..
-What is your life's purpose?
Searching for revelation, true purpose is not found yet. Meditating and leaving my mind blank.
i see something. i can see it. yes. oh.. I lost it. connection x clear. next time maybe.
-What's your motto?
motorola? motorcar?motorcycle? moto-moto? kishishishi.. Just laugh even though the world is cruel.
-What do your friends think of you?
Dom tu jahat kan.. suka-suka dia je buat mcm tu.. apa dia ingat org suka ke dia cam tu? lalalalal..
good listener? I never tell secrets unless i have permission.
-What do your parents think of you?
I'm the most unnormal children. classic malcolm in the middle case.. Unpredictable. sometimes quiet in a place hiding. sometimes laughing joking with all. sometimes throwing tantrums at everything. sometimes can be very mature and all. In a nutshell, two favourite words from my mother. quote "stupid dog!!!"
-What do you think about very often?
I have a lot going in my mind. But recently i was thinking on wanting to travel all over the world. Watch the romantic sunset in hawaii. Enjoy my gondola rides in venice. Get lost in tokyo. learning to surf in australia's ocean.
-What do you think about your best friend?
they are unique. Each and every one of them. like a fingerprints.
-What is your life story?
Blum tulis lag. wait till i die and i askd someone to write my novel of life and summarise it in my obituary. kishishishishi..
-What do you want to be when you grow up?
when i grow up. i wanna be a.. wait?!? i am a grown up. dunno. teaching le.. can't think of what else. que sera sera.
-What do you think when you see the person you like?
Second best is all that i will experience. Tengok je la that person.
-You dance at your wedding?
i have three left feet i think. i'd be having a horrible disastrous dancer in the world and my life wife will complaint and divorce me that night immediately.
-What is your hobby/interest?
Read, sleep, Comic!!!!!!!
-What is your biggest fear?
Ending up alone and lonely. endlonephobic. i made that word up. creativity is one of language properties.
-What is your biggest secret?
If i tell you I'd have to kill the whole IPIK. I mean it. seriously i think my real parents is alien. whoops.. i told you just now. Please don't tell anyone. please3.. i beg of you..
-What do you want right now?
I want a power. Time travel. so i can zap people away if i don't like them. I want to be a villain. I want to try something that none have tried before but i can't think of any. kishishishishis..
-What do you think of your friends?
I'm sorry not as poetic as prettyinpink can be. But two morphemes (lalalalala) came across my mind. "Thank" and "You". semantic properties? can think of any yet. that colourless green ideas seems to be wandering further in the field aiming the boy with the telescopes by the bank.
Kishishishishishi.. Application of linguistic.
-What will you post this as?
Ish... Why me?

Sorry Guys..

I just want to say a FEW THINGS have been going on lately. And expect some of the busyness marching onwards. To shortens things up i would want to make a list of what had happen this few weeks that i'm not writing cos of some stupid internet line not being able to get themselves connected to MY LAPTOP. okay to makes life easy( my hands doing less typing, ur eyes doing less reading) here are some of the things that happened recently.
1. Everyone's favourite - I cried during workshop. (best things is i get free cookies) Thanks adah.. kishishishis..
2. I go back to sibu - Eventhough it was a short trip back (flight friday - back sunday evening) I feel rejuvenated or some kind. I feel less homesick. lalalalalala... the only person knows before i burst out during the workshop is Mdm Ros. Mucho Gracias. (btw she won't read this but nah... just want to thank her.)
3. I F#$ked up in my exam. PnD was hell lot tougher co i don't study at all and everything else is history. - think that u guys know what the hell i'm not studying. No further explanation needed.
4.SnP. I don't know what will happen but i try my best to keep my composure. Everyone ( u know who u are) are trying their best to keep things in strings and working. Try my hardest to be a good leader.
5.Finally i get to download heroes.. lalalallala.. and update my blog.. but probably weekly cos i need to go around and get my connection.

p.s - Sports started few weeks ago. and no sorry i'm not joining this year.. lalalalalal